capture – no capture

8/8/04
   

Birds and beasts, captured onscreen, free in the land. People in the townships, disparities, the effort of justice. I react badly to didacticism – didactyly? the imperative address. Do this, do that, why should I? And yes, no one should speak English as a first language and what we learn in school is hopeless as a joke in the grass.

Learning. I learned I don’t just “tag along.” I can decide, I learned to steer the canoe, I don’t have to switch sides with the paddle. I’m learning to adjust to the sagging flesh on the inner thigh above the knee, to the sight of myself in pictures when I frighten myself, how to take care of long hair, and how to take a break. A lot of learning for one short life.