No I am not under stress, not menopause or lupus, not gall bladder or any other pain\u00e2\u20ac\u201d<\/p>\n
I am livid with the unsatisfactoriness of it all. I wish<\/p>\n
I have desires\u00e2\u20ac\u201dwell I would like to find out\u00e2\u20ac\u201dbefore I die\u00e2\u20ac\u201d
\nif liberation is really possible and in order to do that it appears that I have no choice except to sit and sit and sit and you see, I really don’t have time to sit especially because I can’t negotiate that with my boyfriend and I find it very embarrassing to be “sitting” in the house when someone wants me and before the house is clean and meals and water and the computer\/sewing machines\u00e2\u20ac\u201d
\nbut\u00e2\u20ac\u201d<\/p>\n
why shouldn’t I SIT and
\nhere is the alternative<\/p>\n
forget about any liberation
\nuntil the next life and
\nthere is no next life
\nand<\/p>\n
I don’t believe in God either so I can’t pray for the resolve to make my “growth” possible.<\/p>\n
I really don’t care to know about any purpose or meaning to life I believe in nothing I can point to that is self (right now I sit here writing what is that)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
No I am not under stress, not menopause or lupus, not gall bladder or any other pain\u00e2\u20ac\u201d I am livid with the unsatisfactoriness of it all. I wish I have desires\u00e2\u20ac\u201dwell I would like to find out\u00e2\u20ac\u201dbefore I die\u00e2\u20ac\u201d if liberation is really possible and in order to do that it appears that I have […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[51,8,27,13],"tags":[376,144,369,293],"class_list":["post-248","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fragment","category-household","category-practice","category-self","tag-cleaning","tag-desire","tag-dukkha","tag-liberation"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/248","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=248"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/248\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=248"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=248"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=248"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}