Here are my projects\u00e2\u20ac\u201d<\/p>\n
I write a series about rivers, it feels really forced, much less interior than I’m used to.<\/p>\n
I’m doing book design, an anthology. I feel like curling up in shame for the uneven obstreperous (bluntly) badness of this poetry and get defensive at the awes of horror over awkward typographic dumbnesses in Duncan’s Selected<\/em> oh yes it is a bad book and\u00e2\u20ac\u201dwell, mine probably is too.<\/p>\n I’m writing a gigantic Hallmark card to 365 of my closest friends, a project which I never once get brave enough to mention because it’s absolutely a faux pas in circles like this to write about real people in a dumb form like “50 words,” not to mention being 50 which is also a mistake too grave to mention, so I shut up even though I secretly admire myself, if only for the year-long discipline (its roots in stubbornness).<\/p>\n I have a blog. Lisa acknowledges my blog on hers, kind words; we mention it once in person, then this contact sinks again into the pool of anonymity, mutual lurking. I decide I want to put more energy into my blog, I have sort of a grip on it as an aesthetic project so I post something almost every day in November, although this is quite strenuous, and sometimes, it’s only photos\/fragments.<\/p>\n Lisa’s interest in plants helps me acknowledge that I have a yard, a garden, even a sort of love for certain specimens. I bring two plants indoors for the winter\u00e2\u20ac\u201dparsley, rosemary\u00e2\u20ac\u201dand plant cilantro seeds. The sage survives outside. I think of bringing Lisa some sage bundled as a gift, maybe wrapped in some embroidery floss. No thyme at the moment.<\/p>\n Umm…can’t get there from here. Can’t go to Naropa, can’t spend lots of money on classes when I’m 50 and Blair’s in college, can’t generate a poetic community like the Beats or the New York School springing up from the wasted garden void around me, can’t make contact, can’t begin to get excited again about an online journal project, any opportunity to publish or be published, any sights set higher than retirement sooner hopefully rather than later after I finish paying for the college education of my favorite anarchist who would never rub elbows with an institution unless the term was paid for by a foolish parent (yup that’s me).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Here are my projects\u00e2\u20ac\u201d I write a series about rivers, it feels really forced, much less interior than I’m used to. I’m doing book design, an anthology. I feel like curling up in shame for the uneven obstreperous (bluntly) badness of this poetry and get defensive at the awes of horror over awkward typographic dumbnesses […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[39,45,13,4],"tags":[233,222,234,59,195,218,250,99,251,6,248,146,353,358],"class_list":["post-198","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-narrative","category-opinion","category-self","category-writing","tag-233","tag-anarchist","tag-anonymity","tag-blogging","tag-book","tag-class","tag-community","tag-garden","tag-institution","tag-kids","tag-photo","tag-plant","tag-project","tag-words"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=198"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=198"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=198"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/80pages\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=198"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}