Where have you been?
At the end of the day?
At the end of the week.
When is father-daughter day again?
Tag Archives: time
june 25, 2007
I will only be here for five minutes.
No reunion.
A No Reunion Year.
I won’t allow the conflicts of the day into my prose. All illusion all the time.
june 8, 2007
Stopping. moment. moment. moment. need a punctuation mark like “bullet,” period raised, superscript,
It’s no good being critical of the animals. It’s no good estimating what is blogworthy. It’s no good trying to find the time. My norms are different.
I make afternoons. It was way past afternoon.
I am off tomorrow at 5. I am a.m. I am p.m. I have to leave at 5 p.m.
Resting consciousness and sparrow comes to visit. Sparrows are efficient. No timetables, no project plans.
I’m not sure what time it is. The anxiety of the future has me in its grip.
Sore throat and now nowhere to go with it
no where now here nowhere
now here no where now here
no where now here
okay okay this is a trick of time
may 23, 2007 Wednesday 8 am Starbucks
Stealing time. Stealing it and hiding it in a perfect hiding place. Buried in a perfect dirt hole. Tell you how I miss, tell you how I miss my objects, tell you how I miss my dirty objects. This is like a gaping rawness in my heart. This is like a virgining of the flowers. This is like rotting. Don’t want that habit. Objecting to the purity.
Happiness. Counting the days, the lines the minutes and the hours. Yes, yes I can see the Buddha in your mind is angry. The smells. You can’t deny requirements for meditation, you can’t deny the leftovers, the bowls, the cups, the glasses, the hard litter of the kitchen. You can’t deny your stomachache, you silly westerner, when are you leaving? yesterday? Someone made a study of her punctuation. And so long arriverderci after all amen.
Demons into Allies—
| money | -> | beauty -> | clothes home |
| -> | sharing -> | Blair, Kiva? | |
| -> | saving -> | 401K, pay off debts |
| impatience resentment |
-> | my koan. My obvious opportunity to yearn for liberation |
Buddhism really figures in here.
| my passivity at work |
-> | don’t get involved in tempests, gossip. Step up to motivation. Spend time with the winners. |
| two days a week at home |
-> | Discipline. Housework? Chores calling me? Exercise? Errands? I don’t think I can work 8 hours at home. Maybe that’s not the point. |
| Creative time | -> | most rewarding projects have been in fragments. |
Sam deserts me often in the evening, sleeping. I can do a lot with a short period of time every day. The daily effort is my ally. I fritter away time on Tues and Thurs, flounder.
I know I’m going to do this.
I am afraid.