I am really struggling with a lot of questions—

• WRITING (I crave my eerie freedom)
• Relationship—how much is too much
• Dharma friendships (Batchelor)
• The coffee doesn’t taste like coffee
• America
  • and where to go from here

Maybe this is the tail end of my tenure working I am certainly chafing under all the structure I felt Linda closing the lid down on my dear chaos Friday and I wanted to cry especially since there was no way to explain EXPLAIN—

pressures pressures decompression after Eli’s birthday party yesterday my eyes my eyes my moon